Where to start? My aunt, uncle and cousin just left today after visiting from Japan for two weeks. I was very happy to get to see them, and sad to see them leave.
I'm a little late on my New Years journal. 2016 has been kind of a stressful year. Well, that's an understatement. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't terrified of what the next four years will mean for the US, but what's happened has happened, and those of us most effected need to stand together going forward. Please know that all of my amazing friends and watchers, especially those of you who fall under marginalized communities, have my support. Please be good to yourselves, and that includes logging off if you need to. I know I've had to do so several times over these past few months. Self care is more important now than it's ever been. Remember that it's okay to put yourself first. Eat, stay hydrated, take your medication, go for a walk, take a bath, whatever it is you need to stay both mentally and physically healthy. If you're struggling, if you're having dangerous thoughts, there are links to hotlines on my page. Please don't be afraid to seek help.
For me, it's definitely been a mixed bag. Towards the tail end of 2016 it started to seem like my body was turning against me. I've been breaking out in unbearable hives every single night, and I currently look like I lost a fight with a very angry cat from digging at myself. There have been no changes to my diet or environment, so the dermatologists believes it's a reaction to stress, which is like, the one thing I can't do much about that I haven't already been practicing. The only medication that touches it also completely knocks me out for at least twelve hours, and I don't like feeling like I'm having chunks taken out of my life like that, so I've generally tried not to take it.
2016 was a slow, but good year in art for me, I think. After ten years, I was finally able to overcome my personal trauma and allow myself to create adult art, which I've been greatly enjoying and found extremely cathartic. My hope for this year is to make at least a few sequential pieces, like Turning Point.
Other 2016 highlights include:
Someone finally telling my gross BIL to get out
Wishing I had more money, but still being grateful for what I have
Feeling very disappointed in my own country
Wishing alcohol never existed
Taking up gardening (or trying to, at least)
Many people, including family, showing their true colors on certain issues
Pokemon Sun and Moon
Discovering my great love of games with romance options, and wishing they'd integrate that feature into more
Finally getting a Twitter and several other sites
Overall, it was not my best personal year, but definitely not the worst; that honor still goes to 2012, and I truly hope it stays that way. I'm going to try and enter this year with a positive outlook and attitude. I'm going to try and let myself not care as much about trivial things. I'm going to try and let myself be silly and laugh. That is my goal for the new year.