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Disease does not own me.
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:damphyr: ItDoesNotHaveMe is an awareness group on deviantART started by opioid after unexpected but incredibly positive feedback for her Lyme Disease article on dA's editorial news. It is a place where artists coping with illness--either physical or mental, their own or a loved one's--can seek out a headquarters for awareness and expression.

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Fri Jun 17, 2016, 11:36 AM
Just got home from the lab and I'm sobbing. Not because I got bad results. Because of the process itself of being stuck with a needle; in particular when they're used for drawing blood. I kept my cool (well, not really, you'll know what I mean later, though) while I was in there. My hands were soaking wet with sweat and I was shaking, trying to be polite with the nurse and keep my voice as calm and level as possible. She prepared my left arm first with the tourniquet, the sensation brought chills down my spine, but I tried to think of other things and put my mind elsewhere, then it came off. No pinch. She went to my other arm and did the same, but once again, no needle. She said my veins were very small, and she would be more comfortable with their main person doing it. My mind was racing and I just kept saying "Okay!', "Sure!" etc. in as sweet and calm a tone as I could manage. She gave me a magazine to read, and I tried so hard to focus on the images and bring my thought process to them, but the inevitable kept clawing back to completely dominate my mind, so it was pretty useless.

She came in. A sweet little woman, looked through my files before coming up to me and once again having me go through the preparations; this time on my left arm again. I felt it go in. I hyperventilated, shut my eyes as hard as I could, and felt like I was going to faint and vomit at the same time, then she told me it was over while pressing the gauze to my arm. I felt so embarrassed. I felt like this was something that would be acceptable to for child, but not an adult. I knew, objectively in my mind, that this is such a standard, minor thing that happens all day every day in medical establishments across the world. The actual pain involved in the process is so minor that I'd hardly give it a one on the 1-10 scale, and the risks are basically non existent: none of these things bother me, yet it still terrifies me. When I went to have an operation (my tubal) the actual idea of them cutting me open, burning and moving my internal organs around bothered me, but I was like, oh well, I can do it. It was the IV that would have to be put in FOR my surgery that terrified me for months before it happened.

When I got back out and into the (relative) privacy of my grandmother's car outside the medical center, I completely lost it. I was wailing, gagging and balling my eyes out. I was ashamed and embarrassed while doing so. The Spongebob quote "I'll have you know I stubbed my toe last week, and I only cried for twenty minutes!" came to mind.

I hate this about myself. I hate it because it's not logical and I don't understand why it has this embarrassing effect on me.

And I just learned that they made a goof and will need to draw blood again, because my dermatologist made a mistake with what he requested them. I have to go back today.

*Edit* Went back again. Cried again, was unable to hold out until I got out this time. It was extremely fun knowing that everyone in the waiting room could hear a grown woman crying in the next room, but at least it's over, and I can have my medication now.

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Binny
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:damphyr: You can call me Binny. You may recognize me from my time on the Community Relations team here on DA, taking care of the Anthro Gallery with Katmomma and Pixel-Spotlight.

:damphyr: I'm an artist of no particular genre. Art is cathartic for me and the subject matter varies depending on my interests at the time. I do a lot of fantasy, sci-fi, fan art and anthro themed work, with other odds and ends in between. Please note that you must be logged in to view my gallery.

:damphyr: ❤: animals, rain, storms, tea, hot chocolate, snuggling my guinea pigs, sleeping, pretty rocks, being outside, gaming, aquariums, koi ponds, gardening, science, dorky things, vintage things, thrifting, psychology, body/sex positivity and education, collecting various things, transhumanism, hanging out in my PJs, landscaping, interior design, cool gadgets

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misskoifishpony Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Dear Savagebinn,
Hello, my name is Miss Koi Fish Pony:) Like you, I'm a fan and a shipper for Fluttercord:3 By the way, love love your recent devian of Fluttercord<3 Fluttercord forever!XD Lol anyway, I was wondering if you would like to audition as an artist for my audio drama:
m.youtube.com/watch?v=_kD2eSq1…
If you're not interested or too busy, I understand:) But it would be a big help if you could spread the word about these auditions to any artists, voice actors, or video editors you know. Thank you and have a good day:)
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FlyingRam Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2016
Thanks for the watch.
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Southrobin Featured By Owner May 21, 2016
Thanks for the fave, and for using my stamps on your page!
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SheepMiIk Featured By Owner May 17, 2016
I hope you are doing well, Binn! :heart:
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